A time or two, I literally just forgot that I was forgoing screen time and checked Facebook or something. My husband kindly reminded me to put my phone away. The other 2-3 times, I just felt like I had "good excuses" for checking my phone or watching snippets of TV...like being stuck in a hotel room with 3 young children two nights in a row. Then, yesterday, I went to a 7:00 movie with my sister.
Anywho, I have mostly been following my fast and I have learned a few things.
- I go to bed A LOT earlier if I am reading during the evening hours rather than using a screen.
- I don't mindlessly snack as much in the evenings. This has been a strange by product of my 2014 Lenten Fast. I honestly did not realize how linked TV and food have become in my life. But, when I am reading (or falling asleep earlier), I just don't have the ability to snack like I do when my eyes are fixed on a TV screen.
- I must isolate myself from my family...either physically removing myself from them or removing my attention to a book or magazine. This has probably been the hardest obstacle in this year's fast. From 7:00-7:30-ish my kids get to watch a show before be time. While, frankly, I enjoy the break every now and then, I start to miss my kiddos some days. Also, in my ignorance, I forgot about March Madness. Fortunately, most of the games my husband "needed" to watch have been afternoon games (and the teams he cared about are out now).
- Aside from reading, I don't really know what to do with my time in the evenings. Through the years everything has started to become more and more connected to my laptop or phone. I am not even able to write very much anymore if my fingers aren't on a keyboard. In the past I would fill notebooks with words...now that just sounds like a lot more work. AND, since the rest of my family is NOT fasting screen time, it's hard to get the kids interested in a game or my husband engaged in a conversation.
- There has been some space created for me to seek God for healing. Through a few books I've read, I have been able to figure some things out about my heart and about my faith. Really, connecting with God is the point of a Lenten Fast. So, I am thankful that even my puny and failed attempts at fasting have allowed me to focus more on spiritual things.
We are nearly half way to Easter. The truth is, I am going to have to take each day as it comes...and choose not to give it up entirely when I inevitably falter and cheat on my fast. For me, Lent is another part of accepting the journey...progress not perfection...understanding that nothing I do can make me holy and nothing I do will ever stop God from loving me.
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